*Rehab* Starting Fresh

Hi, my name is Cyone and I'm a tryaholic.

Be it hair care, weight loss or skin care at some point I'm bound to give it the old college try. I am the queen of infomercials, can quote virtually every one dealing with weight loss from Slim in Six to Power 90 (the original thats how bad it is) I watch them as I would my favorite episode, waiting for my favorite parts, its really quite sad.

I flirt with this hair growth journey of mine, I'll see a product reviewed on Hairlista or Youtube and slowly but surely it will make its way into my product closet to go unused after the first few times money wasting away and yet still I go back for more.

The drawers under my TV are full of dvds that I haven't done more than the warm up on from the Pussycat Dolls to old school Tae Bo to my new craze dance workouts with Billy Blanks Jr. And Dancing with the Stars Cardio Dance. I even have Zumba ordered and anxiously await to see what new treats it will bring to add to my already vast collection.

Grocery shopping is an exercise in futility I'll pack my cart full of healthy items and add to that foods for my last hurrah because of course this time will THE time, I'll finally get it together. Food goes out of date or just sits in my cabinets as I still frequent the fast food places and hit the store up for just one more snack and start fresh tomorrow.

And don't even get me started on the creams, toners, cleansers, lotions, and moisturizers that litter my bathroom counter, slowly going to waste.

I've tried and failed to use them all, so I'm quitting, I really had a chance to look at my self destructive behavior for lack of a better term. Nothing will work if I don't use it. Doesn't matter what it promises if I never make it past the first day. Its going to require me to stop being a lazy ass and start clicking that this is my life and if I don't want to spend the next quarter century as I spent the first wishing I could but never put any effort to it my life will be over before I ever have a chance to begin it.

I bought a new scale since my old one tended to fluctuate up to 11 lbs in one weigh in, fooling myself with lower numbers is not hurting anyone but me, so after calibrating it to be sure it is correct I have my new start weight, unfortunately not my posted weight of 332, but 339.6, not that bad of a difference and I hope to reach my goal weight of 199lbs in the next year. (Healthy Rate of 2 to 3lbs. A week with plenty of exercise and counting my calories in the 1200 to 1400 range and keeping my carbs lowered by avoiding the white ones) I would post my body fat% but let's just say 2/3rds of me is fat and not in a good way)

As far as my hair journey goes I'm banned from Sally's, the beauty supply stores except for more wigs and thats limited and the ethnic hair aisle at WalMart, I have regime that works if I just work it and 2011 will remain a perm free year. I have my new dryer and all my staple products so unless something runs out I
don't have much use for trying new items yet.

And skin is simple Cetaphil, Palmers, Lava soap, and African black soap tada!

I'll probably do a scale shot and video later but for now this is where I am.

Thanks for reading.

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